Come away by yourselves to a lonely place, and rest awhile. – Mark 6:30
I’m tired. Today if you call me I’m not in. If you look for me I can’t be found. I’m giving myself a break. It all came to a head today on the racquetball court. I went there to unwind after a particularly stressful weekend that included bad weather, a sick child, too many social responsibilities, and too much work. On top of my weekend I now realize that my racquetball game has come to a crisis point. I’ve either got to play more often or quit altogether. It’s not that I’m no good at the game, although today I won’t rule that out completely. But then I can’t be totally bad either, as I’ve been playing semi-regularly for many years, and have worn out several pairs of shoes, numerous gloves, and dozens of racquetballs. The basic problem is I’m tired of losing. Last week I lost 21 to 3 and my opponent in all appearance didn’t even break a sweat. I suggested we switch to a 15-point game so the point spread wouldn’t be so psychologically devastating to me. That just meant that he beat me more quickly and more often.
For a while I tried running to reduce stress. It was too embarrassing. Once two older women with beauty shop blue hair-dos passed me up. While I was gasping for air they effortlessly jogged by laughing, joking and talking about their singles bowling team. After that I was passed up by a three-legged dog. I may never run again!
Obviously I need a new approach to stress management. It’s not that I’m giving up sports altogether, but today I’m just going to go home and recoup. Sometimes I need to back away from the office, leave my athletic friends, withdraw from my family and do something just for me. Today is that day. It’s not that I’m tired of everything. I’m just overly tired of some things.
So I’m going home and turn down the air conditioner because I’m tired of saving energy. I’m going to fix myself a large coke because I’m tired of cutting down on sugar. I’m going to fix a bowl of popcorn with salt because I’m tired of watching my salt intake. And, finally, I’m going to turn on the TV and watch an old western or a Wolfman meets Godzilla movie, because I’m tired of thinking too.
I believe we all need to sometimes give ourselves permission to relax and frivolously do something just for us. Even Jesus felt the need to go out occasionally and be alone (Mark 6:30). I’m sure you have those days too and at times need to escape just to take a break. Well, today is my day, because I’m just tired.
Prayer: I seem to run through life breathless Lord. Forgive me when I don’t take time to renew my spirit.